The Warden

The Warden is very powerful and is tough but fair always... with everyone but me [which isn’t fair]. The Warden is hard on me because they know i can take it. They are hard on me because they want me to be safe. i am grateful to The Warden and would like to get healthier so that i can give them a break.

The Warden has been named as such because they have protected me since i was a baby. The Warden is esentially an ineffective self-protecting survival mechanism employed to cope with very early neglect and abuse.

i gave birth to The Warden and allowed them to take control. i was too young to be a Mother and we did not grow up together in a healthy environment. The Warden assigned responsibility and taught me how to dull suffering by controlling the pain i experienced. i often felt scared, sad, and weak. We protected each other the best we could - with confusing and painful results. We didn’t always agree with each other but felt fused until fairly recently when I gained a new perspective on the voice of my mind.